MEETTA TALKS!- INSPIRATION STATION

"INSPIRATION STATION"

SO UNHAPPY

By Meetta J. Martin 04/13/2010

So unhappy, forever sacrificing my wants for my needs.

So unhappy, having to assume such responsibility.

So unhappy, not being able to truly be carefree.

So unhappy...

always having to be so mindful of my maturity.

Locked in by life choices that challenge my joy.

Feeling burdened down by the economy's pressure.

Working on a job, that holds no future.

I know, in time, that I the last, will be made first.

But still now, SOOOO unhappy, tears don't flow...

instead they burst out of me.

So unhappy, knowing all the gifts in me,

are buried by responsibility.

"Be realistic!", people say.

"Just focus on paying your bills",

but even with the job I now have, that duty, I can't properly fill.

On top of that, I am forced to harness my skills.

Compromising myself just to keep a job!

It makes me so unhappy,

Especially when I am full and well aware of my gifts wealth.

"Don't leave the job, until you have another"

Stifle your dreams of acting, writing, using your unique voice to sing out loud!

Subdue that unique God blessed, accented voice,

that could be used for public speaking, used for encouraging!

SUBDUE IT ALL, "just work a job."

Being the creative person I am, THIS is killing me!

It all has made me...So unhappy.

FOCUS and BE REALISTIC!

Hold on at least, until you find another, maybe a job even better!

How long will I have to wait?

While I yet wait, trying to do the right thing,

Still I am feeling burdened down by economy's pressure.

Working on a job that has no future.

So unhappy,

Feeling stifled and stunted by the gifts in me, being buried deep.

In my current situation, those gifts are not allowed to fully reign free!

But being responsible and mature, I live in my life choices,

while I yet keep making plans, dreaming dreams and while holding on

for something better.

Still I cannot deny, that as the days go by and by,

in my flesh, as a human, in my current situation...

I've been so unhappy!

So unhappy, as of yet,

that prosperity still seems so far away from me.

So unhappy, that they can't see,

(those that are watching me)...

all of the gifts that are flowing around and inside.

"It's not time yet" some say, "for your gifts to truly shine!"

IT'S NOT TIME YET!

But hold onto hope, because it will show you in the right time.

It's not time yet.

So unhappy.

To this advice, I listen.

Being mature and responsible.

But may I confess about how hard it gets,

Holding onto the hope of Gods promises.

I hope death does not find me first, while for freedom, my gifts still hunger and thirst.

Being aware of my blessings, I've felt guilty in my flesh, for feeling

So unhappy at times, as I've struggled to be content.

SO UNHAPPY, AHHHGGG!!!