MEETTA TALKS - "HOMEMADE"

"HOME MADE"

Excerpt from a song by Nicole Mullen

"...See the not-so good ole days can make you weak or make you break.

And I've never been, the most beautiful.

No, I ain't never been, the most popular.

But it's amazing what... love can do!

It's amazing what a little love can do."

"Every thought and action hits like a boomerang

what goes around will come back baby, so careful what you say.

and the little ugly duckings are swans that got away

'Cause Cinderella stories, they still happen every day.

Well the not-so-good old days can make you weak or make you break."

I've never been ...

Don't care, I've never been the most popular.

Still it's amazing what, love can do!

It's amazing what a little love will do!..."

It'a amazing what...home made love can do!

Readers,

Remember! "Meetta Talks" is where I share my life experiences with you. Today, the topic is music! I know some of you have told me that you like the music on this site. Among the regular music on this site, I've just added several new songs, #'s 1, 2, 4, 5, 6 & 8. Number 4 is "Homemade" by Nicole Mullen. You may wonder why I chose any of my music selections, (which I hope you enjoy). I chose them because I wanted the music to reflect me. I wanted it to reflect what I stand for, and be comparable to my writings which come from a place deep inside me. Only thing is, I am not singing the music nor did I write it, but it speaks alot to me, and of me. I hope you hear something that will remind you, of you or at least inspire, excite or comfort you!

And yeah, I went through "homemade" in Jr. and high school, (kind of!).

I dressed decent, but nothing fancy. I was not the prettiest thing and the boys would tease me even in high school! I never got asked out to homecoming or anything! I even went stag to my own prom and ended up being prom Queen! God was with me even then. When your enemies try to crush you, God will lift you up! As far as finances, alot of the other kids in my semi-private high school came from households a little better than mine, financially speaking and in some other ways too! It was a treat for me just to be able to go that school in the first place!

While many of the kids came from regular hardworking family homes, one of my classmates was the child of an "old school" international, celebrity from the local area. That kids purses were more expensive than one of my whole outfits! She and her friends drove themselves to school and I took the bus. They paid to get their hair done regularly. They wore nice makeup all of the time and had their nails professionally done. They seemed so well put together! They also always seemed like they had money to order out for lunch or pay for it in the cafeteria.

I couldn't do that. Lot's of times, I brought my own lunch, even throughout my Senior year!

Anyway, That same kid taunted me from Jr. year all the way through Senior year! She really challenged me! It's amazing, I NEVER BEAT THAT KID UP! And I had SO much anger in me because she was trying to make me feel bad about myself. And God knows I could have crushed that girl! My favorite cousin and my Granny spent quite a bit of time, trying to calm me on the days I would come home so very frustrated about this girl dogging me. They would tell me that she wasn't worth it. She wasn't worth the trouble getting kicked out of school or getting thrown into juvenile hall. My cousin shocked me when she was comforting me, because she was the fighter! Shoot, she'd fight a man with no problem!

To my Cousin and my Granny, for those times, I will be forever grateful.

It's SO AMAZING WHAT A LITLE LOVE CAN DO!

God was with me even then. And he was with that particular classmate too, come to think of it!

At some point in Senior year, this same kid was ragging on me in one of our classes and no one was laughing at her jokes anymore! Even the teacher said, "you see she's not going to respond. Can't you see, she's never responded, at least not in front of me! Take a cue from Meetta and grow up!" Somebody else said, "Yeah...That's right! Meetta has never been mean to you. Leave her alone!" WOW! I thought. Some one's been watching me be restrained. They think it's cool! So many times, I thought I was weak because I didn't react! I've learned that sometimes you can't fight evil with evil, but with kindness!

And when we graduated, I won the Principals award that year. The highest award you can get outside of Valedictorian (at least from my high school). I was in the class o 87' from St. Martin De Porres. When they called my name for the award. SHE WAS THE FIRST PERSON TO JUMP UP, STARTED CLAPPING AND SHOUTING MY NAME. WOW! I thought! ....

What the hell is wrong with her?

I remember, because she was sitting directly behind me on the stage!

I guess high school wasn't that bad! In my junior and senior year, I helped my grandmother pay some the costs for my schooling. I paid for my entire Senior trip (including spending money), paid for my year book stuff and my prom ALL MYSELF! My Grandmother was sweet. She wanted to help, but I wanted to do it on my own! I was working at Little Caesars Pizza in Downtown Detroit, which a teacher at my school helped me get. Her husband was an executive for the company.

I got teased in Jr. High too! but many of you did also! I got teased by the prettiest girls in school. Seemed like they ran in the same group! Though we weren't friends, we knew of each other. Many of us had attended the same elementary too! But I remember this one particular girl who was in a grade higher than me. She and the rest of the girls I mentioned, we all lived in the same neighborhood and that sucked! Sometimes they would threaten to beat me up! So even walking through the neighborhood if, if I saw them, I would often make a detour. Anyway, "Michelle" she was a natural, down to earth beauty, a true 'around the way girl!' She was so popular and cool too! But she used to tease me in school and in the neighborhood along with the rest.

Still, I was envious of her, but you know what?

I saw her again when I was in my 20's. I was standing at the bus top and this woman came up to me and struck up a conversation. she was quite pleasant and then asked me for some money.

I wanted to help and I looked her in her face and realized it was "HER! It was Michelle!

I thought I recognized her, but was kind of unsure. She looked so tired and run down. I asked her if she remembered me. She said yes, but I'm not sure if she did or not. Maybe she was just saying that to get my money, but I remembered her! I felt so sad and flabbergasted at the same time! I...I just!! I cried standing there as she walked away. That was one of those memorable times, when I have felt so sad in myself for someone else, so much so that it left me pained.

Anyway, despite all, I made it out of school alive and well! It was tough though being ridiculed by my peers, especially when my life was already hard. It is amazing! It's amazing how things change for them too! Some for the better and Some for the worse.

Still, You never forget the things or moments that caused you to grow!

BYE!